it’s not unlikely that i could still play this for hours on end like i used to
*single* California Man
Legend of Zelda Playing Cards - Up for sale now!!
You’ve heard me talk a lot about this project, and finally it’s up for sale :D
You can buy the cards at my storenvy shop here
You can also buy prints, posters, phone cases, t-shirts, etc featuring these designs at my redbubble shop here
Thanks for any all and all support, and if you like these designs be sure to share them with your friends!
AWWW ARE YOU SERIOUS
i want to go to school again.
just like yours
it is so hard to give up. it is so hard to keep going.
i am not at a point, nor anywhere near one, where i will take any bad action based on my current feelings. i utilize this place for thoughts when they need to have an outlet. it baffles me the situation that i am in. almost as if the tables turned a perfect 180; i know now what it felt like when i did this to you. there was never any talk of being purposefully unfair, or getting even, or spiteful course. there was only what happened, and what is happening.
i don’t know what WILL happen. it petrifies me when i dwell on these things. literally i sit there and dive deeper and deeper into my mind searching for comfort in basic optimism, staring emptily at whatever lies in front of me. i have never taken depression “well”, one could say, however i know there are people who handle it much worse than i. i don’t look to this post for comments, compliments or gestures of reassurance. there would be none that could help. only God is with me. i still feel more alone than i ever have.
distractions, whether they be people, internets, music or work, are starting to matter less and less and less and less. this weight on my mind clouds everything, it is like a thick rolling fog that moves through the night.
some have said, “maybe it’s time. move on. you’re not getting anything out of this except struggle.”
and yet, it would only worsen if i gave up. i swear it, now that i’ve known for so long what i want and it seems so close and so real and so far and so unattainable and so perfect and so cold and so possible and so ridiculous and so new and so old and so tiring and so unrewarding
and so unending
and so difficult
and so stupid
and so heavy
and so hard
and so, incredibly, massively, infinitely worth it
i can’t fucking stand it